The December issue of GQ includes its annual “Men of the Year” profiles, and among them, this essay from Patton Oswalt on becoming both a widower and a single father when his wife suddenly died in her sleep in April.

Here’s an excerpt:

“This is my first time being a single father. I’ve missed forms for school. I’ve forgotten to stock the fridge with food she likes. I’ve run out of socks for her. I’ve run out of socks for me. It sucked and it was a hassle every time, but the world kept turning. I said, “Whoops, my bad,” and fixed it and kept stumbling forward. Now I know where to buy the socks she likes. I asked two parents at her school to help me with forms and scheduling. I’m getting good at sniffing out weekend activities and scheduling playdates and navigating time and the city to get her and myself where we need to go every day. I work a creative job, but I live a practical life. If I can persuade a comedy club full of indifferent drunks to like me, I can have my daughter ready for soccer on a Saturday morning.”

Read all of “The Year of Magical Parenting,” by Patton Oswalt, in the December 2016 issue of GQ.